At times I feel That i am Sliding Down,Down in to a deep,dark nothingness.
I am Loosing my self,,my selfconfidence.
Feeling of being tolerated rather then seeking my company.
Being scrutanised through enormous Magnifying Glaces
The smallest ,miniscule little speck,turnes in to a monumental colosus.
much much larger then my persona.
my love seems to have become a burden
unpleasent like a spot that ought to be squeezed out!
When did all this happen?
When have I turned in to this speck of invisible unimportence?
perhaps I have lived all along under the Ilusion that I mattered.
wanting to be with,worth listening to,
a hugg without a reason,a quick phone call only to say “hallo”
I had All That,not so long ago.
Not now.Not any more.